Finally! I'm meeting my friend today after 2 weeks, actually it was our vacation. From next month our last year will start. So Me, Hayat and Kriti are meeting at University just for hangout because that's the only place where our mothers let us go without any questions.
You know what real struggle is called? It is "What should I wear today?" In girls life, It's really hard to choose an outfit. I agree that I have plenty of outfit. But every other dress I choose is very old or very new, uncomfortable or so comfortable that can't be worn at college, so festive-ish or so simple that I don't wanna wear for meeting my friend.
After battling mentally, I wore a simple purple cotton top, a white pants and a white scarf around my neck. Applied kajal, sunscreen, lip balm. I wore my favourite jhumkas and bracelet my watch. And I'm ready to go!
Ayezah
I'm cominngggggg!!!
I send text to our group. Which was text less. Last text was Kriti's from last night which was . . .
Hayat
Good night 😘
Kriti
Gn
I bet my life they are still sleeping.
I went to downstairs. I was entering the living room when I heard my parents voice.
"There is something wrong? They have become suspicious of me Aqsa!" My father said worriedly.
They are about some serious issues.
"Everything will be fine. . . . . You are just thinking too much don't pressure yourself . . . . You have become an old man now! Prof.Shoaib. you have hundreds of students to look after." My mother tried to joke. He chuckled.
If we say this to our mothers they will never agree but most of time I find my mum cute. I mean look at her, my father is worried about something and she might be double worried about it. But still she tried to make him smile.
Oh! Please someone tell them how much I love them. And Yes! My father is a professor and guess what? He got the job in University, My University. I dislike this fact.
He isn't my professor though. He is doing this job for more than 20 years. So a few years back he got promoted and became the department head of masters? I mean he is the professor for post graduation students. If it make sense.
"Ammi! I'm leaving." I said entering the living room.
"Where are you going Ziya?" My father asked me.
My name is Ayezah. But only My father called Ziya. He gave me that name. Ammi told me once that I never respond to other people calling me Ziya.
I look at my mother and then at him.
"University?" I said.
"Why? Isn't it -" "She is going to meet her friends." My mother cut her husband off. He looked at her.
"It will be her last year from next month, and who knows when they will get the chance to meet or not?" My mother said last sentence silently.
I was just trying to ignore the fact that we only have few months together. But hearing it from her break my heart.
"Okay! But I wanted to talk to you. Meet me in the evening." My father said, and heart started beating fastly, flashbacks of my worst doing coming in front of my which I NEVER DID! I'm a good girl.
"Talk? What talk? I didn't do anything. Don't scare me Abbu!" I almost cried. I saw my mother looking at my father with narrow eyes.
"You said we have time. Why are bringing up that topic." My mother said calmly.
"Yes! But it's her life she needs to know !" My father replied.
What are they talking about. I don't have a good feeling about it.
"Ziya! We have fixed your marriage." My father said looking at me.
And my heart stopped beating. My breathing stopped. They're lying. This cannot be happening. I'm still studying. I hate men. I hate marriage. I don't wanna get married. They said I can study whatever I want. They said they will always support me. I hate my parents. They're liars. He even gave me the permission to do a job If I want to. And now he has already fixed my marriage.
"Ayezah! Sit here! You're not getting married, now! We have just fixed your marriage. The Marriage will happen after years, at least after two years, when you both have completed your studies. You're not getting married for the time being. You have time." My mother started saying hurriedly and I got back my breathing.
My father gave me a glass of water and sat beside me. I emptied the glass in one go.
"See I told you not tell her about it now she will get tensed." My mother complained my father.
"Will he wait for two years or his family? What if they come tomorrow and say let's get them married next week or month or . . . . " I'm scared, because mostly things like that happens.
"He didn't have a family." My mother answered.
"He's an orphan. He is from Lucknow. Came here for studies. And he is doing MBA from our University. And he is best student of his batch. It's also his last year. Just like you. You might have seen him in a campus." My father informed me. And the way he's telling me about him he is definitely his favourite student.
"Hnn?" I looked at him confused
"Forget it. Now listen to me Ziya! I didn't tell you to burden you or stress you. I told you because it is your life. You should know about it. And now I'm asking you something do you have someone in your heart? Or do you like someone? I know the answer but I'm still asking."
"NO!" I hate boys.
"Do you wanna meet him?" He asked me.
"What? Shoaib!" My mother exclaimed. But my father stopped her by showing his hand.
"You can meet him if you want? Don't think about me or your mother that we will be against you. We will support you whatever your decision will be." He assured me.
"Last night I said the same thing to him and he said no I don't think they should meet before marriage....and now!" My mother complained.
"I don't know!" I said. Cause I really don't know what to do with this new information. Ahhh I need to meet my friends as soon as possible.
"Okay! No problem! That's enough for today. You should go now Hayat and Kriti must be waiting." My mother said, and I got up and left the house.
I took the metro and reached the university in 40 minutes. I entered and went to our usual spot where we always hangout. As expected they were late.
I remembered how we prayed that three of us should get selected in the same college. We were so happy and carefree. MUMBAI UNIVERSITY was our dream. I can't believe we have spent 4 years together here. We made so many memories.
This university is so huge. Once you enter from the gate there is a long walkway to enter an old style architecture building, you know like CST Station, which is a square kind of building from inside and has a big ground in the middle. This building belongs to the Arts and Commerce department. And if you walk straight, you will exit this building. There is a huge ground for sports activities. After that ground there is another huge building of modern architecture that belongs to the science and Masters department, where my father works. There are some small plants and trees here and in the whole campus. Which seems like a garden.
That's where I'm right now. There is sitting place below the tree which is our favourite. I'm listening to music when I saw that stupid coming, Kriti. She waved at me and I rolled my eyes at her.
"Don't roll your eyes on me, I came first! Hayat didn't arrived yet!" She said loudly as she was still away from me.
"Yes! And I'm still at my home. It's my ghost you're talking to!" I replied.
"Forget it! We need to talk, call her, where is she?" I said, I feel like my mind is gonna blow up.
Kriti dialed her number. Hayat said she is coming she has almost reached. Hayat arrived after 10 minutes. We argued for a minute, and then I dropped the bomb on both of them.
"Abbu has fixed my marriage!"
Their face turned towards me with shock,they looked at at me and eachother. They both started laughing.
"You're joking!"Â Kriti said in between her laugh.
"But obvio! She is pranking cause we came late!" Hayat added.
I face palmed myself.
"I'm not joking guys!" I said seriously.
They calmed down.
"Show me his photo." Kriti demanded.
"I don't have any photo of him." I said.
"What's his name?" Hayat inquired.
"I don't know!" I answered. I didn't even know his name.
"It's a prank!" Kriti spoke again.
"No!"
They both looked at me confused and I told them whole conversation.
"Ayezah you should meet him!" Hayat said.
"Yes! Let's go! Find him now and then you can reject him! Problem solved!" Kriti exclaimed.
"No! I don't wanna reject him!" I wanna know how he is, if my father has chosen him for me.
"Oooohh! So you have already fell in love without even looking at him." Kriti teased.
"Haww! And you didn't even tell us Ayezah." Hayat said putting her hand on her mouth.
They are idiots. I'm so done with them.
I didn't said anything.
After a moment Hayat started, "First of all stop overthinking Ayezah. And when your parents said that you will get married after years. You have time Ayezah. Don't think too much about it."
"Yeah! She's right!" Kriti agreed.
They are actually right. I'm unnecessarily overthinking. Abbu has said that they have only fixed the marriage and it is not happening like tomorrow or next week. My last year is still left. I should focus on my studies for now, marriage can wait.
"No way!" Kriti exclaimed. "This boy didn't even have a social media account."
"Who?" Hayat and I said together.
"Your soon to be fiancé! Who else!" She pointed at me.
How did she found him?
"How did you find him without a name?" Hayat questioned.
"I've heard from other girls. There was only one boy who got both, the good marks and good looks. It's definitely him." Kriti informed.
"You found the picture?" Hayat asked.
"No! I mean Yes! It's a group picture of last years uni-festa. He is the head of our cultural activities." Kriti explained.
And showed us her phone.
"If you can see!"
I looked at the screen, It is a group picture but a group of 50 to 60 students. No one's face was clear. I can recognise kriti and some other our classmates. But other people I can't.
"Which one?" Hayat asked again, she is excited, actually they both are more excited than me about my marriage. And handed over the phone to her.
"Look at centre! The blue one!" Kriti remarked.
They were engrossed in the phone, and I don't know what to do?
"I'm going to the canteen, are you guys coming? I'm getting bored." I walked away
"Coming!" They screamed.
"I can't see his face clearly." Hayat complained.
"Just wait Hayat baby! Next month he will be standing in front of you." Kriti grinned.
They are crazy.
We ate some food at canteen. Hangout a little bit more and then in the evening IÂ came back home.
It was night when I was laying on my bed. When my mind suddenly remembered my marriage. I haven't even seen him yet. I'm not feeling anything but . . .Â
Is it fine to not feel anything
And what if he isn't like what I have imagined my husband to be?
I don't believe in true love though. But I would be lying if I said I would be fine if my husband didn't love me.
Is he a good looking person?
Is he really a smart boy?
Does he have a good personality?
What if he turned out to be a bad boy?
Or
A criminal?
But the real question is : how did he convince my father?
I mean he is an orphan, and my father doesn't have any problems.
I have heard mostly family are like, we are looking for family oriented boy for our daughter.
Or
What
If
Is he like those fictional characters who secretly lo
ve the female lead for years and then suddenly they show up?
Or what if he is marrying me for some kind of revenge?
Shut up Ayezah you're not in a fictional world. This is real life. Sleep it's 2 a.m.
And I drifted to sleep.
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